My life ahead-Purpose of living

I am in my final year undergraduate course and its time like all other final year undergraduates to start pondering what would the "next step"(say it with hand quotes as Dr. Evil does) in life be.

Most feasible option job in an IT company, do coding work for an unknown customer in an entirely different part of the world(getting mentally and physically outsourced doing so) ,without having any clues why are asked to do the job in the first place ,at the same time enjoying the mellifluous lifestyle and feeding yourself with a lot from McDonalds ,the KFC and the Nirulas until one fine morning after five years you realize how screwed up your life has become and you get so pissed off that you resort to self-cannibalism. (Damn!!! That was a long sentence......But I dare you to find any mistakes in it :P)

If you ask me I would be more interested in a career that would have a viciously bumpy road ahead ,a career in which what you do makes at least some sense. I would love to pursue a career in which when you start it you are in a state of quandary and your progress is determined by how you perceive a real situation/phenomena(it may be the most difficult of all) and modifications you can do to make it more meaningful to humanity. I mean come on, if you have just this one life on Earth would'nt it be better you leave a permanent mark in this world ,and what better would it be that with the work that you do you are able to achieve this.

I would like to express my feelings during my last couple months internship period where I experienced physics at the highest level in the world. I am never saying here that just because I my work dealt with physics ,I liked it. Anywho,I was given a project that was very interesting , a very straight forward one, yest a project, that had real pragmatic scence in modern day cutting edge technology .To start up with the project I had to do some serious quantum mechanical stuff. Yes being an IIT graduate you are expected to know the subject but (IIT motto-"U mug the hell out of the course and you get an S in the course" , this is what I feel to be utterly ROTTEN in the IIT system, but thts altogether a different story), seriously despite getting an A in the subject in the first year when I picked up the book it was totally Hebrew to me. It was like hell for me in a foreign land!!!!

Slowly and steadily I began to understand the subject by actually visualizing and understanding how the theoretical improbable erudite phenomena can be applied to my problem. Things really began to ease out . As Richard Feynman pointed out there is really a pleasure of finding things out.

Gradually when I went on with my project everyday would be a new challenge for me. My progress in my work each day would be halted by a set of staunch predicaments and I would really have to crack my head to sprint through these obstacles, so that end of the day leave a happy man boosted with self confidence. But that very night after dinner over the ice-cream jar suddenly feeling the uneasiness in the stomach realizing a new set of problems that would hinder the progress of my project that I would have to think of the next day. However with each passing day traveling home ruminating while watching the majestic Dublin Bay I would get the feeling that despite all the frictions I am making a progress in my work.

At the end of it all when you get the desired result(it would not only make your boss happy), the happiness within, the inner conscious that exults with exhuberence that Damn it YES!!!!!!!!! all those days of hard work and uncertainty have finally paid off. It is the thinking sessions that I had with my bosses as well as my colleagues that I would really cherish.

Personally after all this I felt that despite knowing very less than the people around me , being amongst the most erudite people of all in the field as a result of my zeal to work and do something new I was able to make a small yet significant contribution in the work which they did.

Now this is the type of work that I would be really interested in where in my inputs, the way I perceive the project, my thinking would me to progress ahead in my career and would be the very reason my co-workers as well as my superiors would revere me.


Well this is what I think about how I would like to mould my life ....Your suggestions would be really invited in this blog entry........Do tell me what you think......Until next time ......Cheers !!

Top 10 Songs on my hitlist presently

Well music is probably the thing that is the most essential for our survival (apart frm food and H2O of course).I thought of sharing my list of top 10 songs that I've been listening quite frequently and have been my Raison d'être in the past few miserable days:

#1 Rihanna -"Take a Bow"
#2 Chris Brown-"Forever"
#3 Sam Sparrow-"Black and Gold"
#4 Alison Krauss-"When you say nothing at all" (Oldies still prevail)
#5 Chris Daughtry-"Feels like Tonight"
#6 Poets of Fall-"Roses"
#7 Evanescence-"My Immortal"
#8 Poets of Fall-"Late Goodbye"
#9 Hillary Duff-"Happy"
#10 Kelly Klarkson-"Behind these hazel Eyes"


Do give suggestions if I've missed on any good ones :).........

Summer in Dublin

I really apologise for not writting in the last two months, actually I was away on my internship at Dublin and for some funny reason my blog wasn't opening there. Probably i libeled the irish a lot in my blog (my worst case of colonial hangover!!!!!!...If it weren't for mammoth money with Ireland every english man would be busting the a**es of their english counterparts).

To be frank I had a blast at Dublin pretty much balancing physics,cappuccino 3 times a day from Starbucks coffee, tennis, Euro 2008 and of course alcohol. After all I was in a city known among all genres for its night life (which is kind of Ironic considering Dublin receives just 5 hours of night time during the summers). Not to mention I met some wonderful people there they really rocked.

Anywho it seems kind of wierd that I am writting all this considering no one reads this blog :-p (worst smiley any1 ever made).


Probably the thing I was the most amazedat was the extremely fat paycheck that made my bank accountquite burdonesome at the end of two months. Damn!!! the Irish have real money!!!! Quite frankly I could easily do away with (yet share adequate) with the most prodigal(yes, I coined this word) lifestyle as possible with half that amount. Guess that is financial freedon (a really extreme one).

Thats the way Research is all about, prbly. Well I know Researchers especially physicists are branded as the most geeky, havin big Grey hair,bearded. But seriously, gone are those days of einstienism and newtonism[not in terms of physics, sorry this is not balsphemy ]. To be frank researchers are real smart people living and njoying their life to the fullest.

But, with all this work becomes of primal importance. In my case to be honest the results that I obtained from my work were'nt that futile and lets see probably in a few months maybe the work which I did in Dublin may shape up my career!!!!

At the end of my internship yes I could proudly say that I am not a lonely cockroach in a drain (the feeling which I get spending endless days in my hostel room during term) but be really be worth of some day!!!!!